Chasing a ‘fairytale’ life
When my dad passed away, his parting wish was for me to ‘live my dreams’ and so even though I was now in my 30’s, with his inspiration, I set out to make it happen! My goal was to walk onto a Las Vegas Stage with big Wings like a Victoria’s Secret Model.
I call this my ‘Farm to Fairytale’ Experience… but I lost more than 30kgs to get to this stage, which was no fairytale! It was hard work, sweat and tears! Even in the final stages of my journey, whilst it got easier, there were highs and lows.
I was a 33 year old, chasing a childhood dream and I was full of enthusiasm, but also naive and a little bit silly. But I learned so much and I am forever grateful to my dad for helping me see that you can make your dreams a reality!
The final stage of making my modelling dream a reality, was a very exciting time for me, so I kept a handycam so I would never forget the experience, and you can watch my journey on this page!
FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS…
I am just an Aussie Country Girl with BIG DREAMS! At the start of my transformation journey I had a dream… to grace a Las Vegas stage in a Showgirl costume! So this year I decided, I am going to MAKE IT HAPPEN! I invite you on my journey whilst I prepare for the biggest trip of my life to the USA to step on that stage! This is NOT about the competition, as it is simply just the stage that I have chosen. This is not about anybody else, or how well I place or do, I am NOT going there to win a trophy to gather dust, or a ‘pro-card’ or any other material thing or title, as this has a much deeper meaning to me…this is about achieving a milestone in my transformation, about chasing a childhood dream, and proving to myself that I can do and achieve anything that I really want.
DREAMS REALLY DO COME TRUE…
This is the moment when I told my mum that I had purchased flights for her to come with me to the USA! She has never been out of the country before and it has always been her dream to go to Disneyland, and I know she really wanted to be there for my show but just couldn’t afford it with all the maintenance that’s been required around the farm lately. So in the name of making dreams come true, I present her with her itinary…including a 2 day park hopper pass to DISNEYLAND! This was a very special moment for me and I just can’t wait to jump in a giant tea cup with my mum!
THE ‘BIKINI LADY’
Today I drove to Melbourne to visit my top secret ‘Bikini Lady’ to get my custom bikini design started! 5 hours of driving out of my day so I was up early to fit in training, and prepare all of my food to take with. I am so excited for my design I think it’s very ‘ME.’ The material I chose screamed out to me the minute I walked into her studio… let me just say this Bikini is a little bit WILD!
I’M HUNGRY FOR SOME CHICKEN!
Today was a good day, I managed to get through my one hour of morning cardio walking uphill on the treadmill in my fat burning zone easier than many days. This is my least favourite part of each day but I just do it (and dream of my oats for breakfast the majority of the time). I also got in a bike ride during the day before hitting the gym that night to do some weights, feeling motivated and on track today.
FRIDAY NIGHT PARTY IN MY SHOULDERS!
I have way too much fun in the gym – I am a bit of a crazy one 🙂 I’m at it again with those sound affects and heavy breathing…oh my! Hahaha!
SATURDAY NIGHT HIT THE TOWN
I’ll choose the gym and dumbells, over the club and alcohol, anyday! LOVE IT and I have my own party every training session!
CALVES or ‘CALVES?’
I was feeling a bit stressed again today. Just feeling like there is so much to do and keep up with and not enough time in each day to fit in all of my training and nutrition and work! So I took a minute to go and say hi to the calves in the paddock after my morning cardio, as they always make me smile. Then I went and worked my calves in the gym, and these calves are not so cute! I definitely feel the burn in them!
THE DREAM COSTUME
I am feeling very motivated after seeing a progress pic of my AMAZING costume today! WOWWW! If I am struggling with my training then all I need to do is picture how I want to look when I step onto the stage in this costume, and I will be able to push out an extra one or two reps!
INTO THE CITY FOR POSING PRACTISE 🙂
I love seeing Vicki, she has been my greatest mentor from the first time I wanted to compete on stage, she is so supportive and inspiring! Vicki has been judging Bodybuilding and Fitness Competitions for years in Australia, and has a priceless wealth of knowledge and experience. She gave me the best pep talk after posing class and I know now that for the next 3 weeks my eyes are on the goal! There will be NO cheating on my diet, as Vicki said not one little cracker! It all counts now.
After seeing Vicki yesterday I am feeling more focused with my nutrition. It requires a lot of dedication at this stage to be so mindful of everything I put in my mouth, but it is exciting to wake up in the morning and notice the changes in my body! And it’s always exciting to wake up to breakfast- thanks to the chooks!
COME ON A RIDE WITH ME
It was a great day for a ride today! As much as I can’t wait for my morning cardio to be done each day so that I can eat my breakfast… I do really enjoy my morning cardio on the bike, passing through cow crossings and past tractors – which I am glad I can actually take a hand off the handlebars to wave to these days 😉 I used to go for a jog everyday but it was really affecting my muscle tone, as my heart rate would get up too high, and my body would start burning muscle instead of bodyfat, so facing my fears, I taught myself to ride a bike at the age of 32, and now I LOVE IT!
EVEN MY HAIR IS GOING TO BE PEAKING!
I can’t be wearing a beanie around Hollywood next week! Today it was off to the hairdressers after my morning cycle cardio session! Even going to the hairdressers is like going on school camp, I have to pack an esky with all of my meals. I was struggling with all of that time sitting in the chair, and it made me start thinking about how well I am going to cope with being on a plane for so many hours on the flight to the other side of the world! One thing I know..I am going to be hanging to get into the nearest gym as soon as I land as I couldn’t wait to hit the gym tonight and I worked my Bi’s and Tri’s.
I LOVE MY OLD SCHOOL COUNTRY GYM 🙂
Today I hit town for an afternoon workout with PT Brooke from Body & Soul. I LOVE this gym, it’s an old school country gym with the best atmosphere, it’s all about training! I can rock up there anytime, on the way home from the city for a modelling job whilst I am looking all glamorous, or like today – after working on the farm in my flannelette shirt! Nobody cares what you look like or what you are wearing, it’s just about getting in and giving it your best, just GETTING IT DONE! I love the distressed look of the free weights from being thrown around, they are priceless history of many hours of hard work and hardcore training sessions! They just don’t make gym’s like this anymore! Brooke and I smashed our legs and glutes this afternoon and as much as we pushed each other, it was also a lot of fun to have a training partner! As I always say, you can either laugh or cry or about it and lucky for me, today it was a laugh 😉
FIRE UP FOR SUMMER
Tonight I hit the gym to fire up my abs ready for SUMMER! HELL YESSSSSSSS in only a couple of days I will be in the USA Summertime! I couldn’t be happier to be leaving the cold windy days of winter on the farm behind me to head to the other side of the world for some sunshine! BRING IT ONNNNNNNNN! I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED (oh and I think mum is even more excited now ;P)!
‘SEE YA LATER’ AUSTRALIA!
Today I board the jet to the US of A! Whooooohoooo! I can’t believe it is finally upon me. I am so excited to complete my final two weeks of prep for the stage in the Summer of America! Goodbye farm, goodbye my old school country gym, I will miss you, but….BRING THIS ONNNNNNNNNNNNN!
ON THE WAY TO THE U.S OF A!
It was a smooth flight all things considered. We went back in time and gained a day, but it feels far from it, feeling exhausted. I got past the challenges of travelling on a strict diet and was very happy to get my chicken through customs so that I could have regular protein meals! It’s a loooooong flight but we arrived safe and sound. Must admit I felt safer on the plane than driving around America on the opposite side of the road to Australia! Yes things are a bit different here…
RESERVING A SPOT FOR MY STAR 😉 WE HAVE ARRIVED IN THE ‘LAND OF DREAMS!’
My first stop today was for a FULL BODY wax, tan and nails (just like Meme the chihuahua- yes we know we are in Hollywood now). The food and how I am going to get my next clean meal is still a general concern for me whilst travelling, so I was glad to find a shop unknown to Australia called ‘Fresh & Easy’ full of pre-cooked and packaged food… and I thought Australia was supposed to be known as the lazy country! This shop is very very handy for a traveller ;P
GETTING ORGANISED IN HOLLYWOOD
Now I am de-fluffed from the farm and looking the part with the tan and nails, my next priority was to get connected to the world today (oh after another meal ofcourse ;P) I need to check my facebook! Although our helpful consultant at AT&T tells me that Instagram and Twitter are the go here, and this cool new thing called ‘vine’ which is 6 second videos- LOVING the sound of this, but wondering how I can complete a diary update of my day in 6 seconds? Oh and he thinks it’s pretty funny how mum and I say ‘heaps’ (ie. well mum won’t use her phone ‘heaps’) and he wanted to know if he can use that one! Sure Mo you can steal that one, thanks ‘heaps’ for your help 😉
MY BIRTHDAY IN HOLLYWOOD!
Today I had a little bit of fun playing around at Madame Tussaud’s Wax Museum. It was lots of fun, and quite a laugh when I ended up having a bunch of people lining up for photo’s with me instead of the wax figures! I think the tourists must have thought I was famous or something after one guy asked for a pic with me, and so they all jumped on the bandwagon! Hahahaha! It was a bit of a kick to feel like a Hollywood star for my Birthday anyway so I was more than happy to play along with it! 😉 http://youtu.be/ULKYwn8COqs The rest of my day consisted of training at LA Fitness and sticking to my competition prep diet. But that’s ok- it’s my choice and this is something that I want to do! I didn’t come all of the way here to eat cake! I can have my cake (and eat it all too hahaha) after the show if I wish! Today is a great day to reflect on things and something that I have learned is to stop worrying about what other people think, and really start being true to myself. By tuning in to what drives me and what I really want in life, I am now able to follow my heart to achieve things that really matter to me, and I can confidently say that I am proud of my age and myself.
HOW FAR I HAVE COME…
The real truth is that it’s about the JOURNEY more than it is about the few moments on stage. I still remember VIVIDLY the first time that I walked into a gym and how intimidated I felt, and that was just my small-town country gym! And I remember the embarrassment and humiliation of having to leave the class half way through because I thought I was going to have a heartattack! So today, when I trained in one of the World’s biggest gyms, and one of the trainers came up to tell me that I had quite a fan club at the gym from my daily attendance, I had one of those moments of realisation. Today I realised just how far I have come…
MY LIFE, MY CHOICES, MY DREAM, WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT TO ME…
Today I talk about some of the social sacrifices I make, and to be honest, it is very easy when I just listen to my heart. I am very focused on my training, and LOVING it so much that I would much rather spend my afternoon running up to the top of Runyon Canyon and my night in, getting some beauty sleep, than experiencing the Hollywood nightlife. Whilst we will still be taking footage along the trip, with the challenges of travel,etc, I won’t have time to post daily between now and the competition day. I look forward to sharing the experience of the final week with you after the show! Take care and TRAIN HARD SPUNKS! I know I will be…;P
VISITING MY BEAUTIFUL, RICH, FAMOUS AND FEATHERED FRIENDS AT THE PLAYBOY MANSION!
I have been friends with Hugh Hefner since he surprised me with hosting my 30th Birthday party at the Playboy Mansion in 2010, and I made some great friends that I still keep in touch with from that day. When my friend heard that I was back in town (Hollywood) I was invited to come back for Sunday Fun in the Sun, (lunch & drinks by the pool, sunbaking, a little tennis and playing with the animals, followed by dinner and dessert with Hef’s closest friends and family, more drinks and a movie in Hef’s cinema). I enjoyed catching up with old friends (including the animals) and having some Sunday rest by the pool at the Playboy Mansion. However, I resisted temptations at lunch, dinner, dessert, by the bar, and the snacks in Hef’s cinema. I chose the bottle of water instead, and you could find me in the gym at the end of the night, not the grotto! I even had a little moment to think and I had to pinch myself, here was this country girl who used to be overweight ‘hanging out’ at the Playboy Mansion like the world’s SEXIEST women do! WOW!!! Hef is one of my greatest mentors, he is a genuine caring & generous man, and an Entrepreneur who has built a Mega Empire similar to what I will grow the SPUNK SHOP to be! I have always held Hef with the highest regard, whilst he is in a different industry to myself, much can be learned from him.
ONE OF ‘THOSE DAYS’
Every journey is full of ups and downs. Today was one of those down days when I question myself and what I am doing. I could have partied up at the Playboy Mansion last night, sipping cocktails in the grotto, and woken up in the guest house to another day chilling with my friends by the pool…but instead I chose to leave early, so that I could wake up early and hit the gym for a training session before I board the plane to Vegas, to be another step closer to my goal. This footage was not supposed to be shared to the public, but I just think it wouldn’t be the REAL ‘Behind the Scenes’ if you didn’t see it. So I am willing to swallow my pride, and share with you, the real journey and the real struggles that I have faced along the way to striving for my goals, and making my dreams the reality. Sometimes I do get lost in my Fairytale experience like Hansel and Gretel, and sometimes the Big Bad Wolf does Huff and Puff, and ALMOST blow my house down! Things are not always smooth sailing, and when I had a few things go wrong today, like missing our flights, having to fork out more money for new flights, was treated poorly by the airline staff, and then realising how UNDER-PREPARED I was with making my way to the BIG city of Vegas, like not having pre-organised how I would get my meals, and by not realising how hard it would be to accommodate my diet, I just felt really hopeless. But something inside me keeps driving me, the same thing that has driven me to lose over 30kgs, and that has got me this far, and I think of my dad and his battle with Huntington’s Disease and how he NEVER, EVER considered giving up, and it reminds me that I just have to KEEP ON GOING, knowing that tomorrow is a new day.
DRESS FITTING- REALITY CHECK 🙂
Today I picked up my costume! Made especially for me, in colours to suit my hair and complexion, the costume is simply AMAZING! Laden with crystals, this Costume is going to make sure I sparkle on stage! After a bad day yesterday, this was exactly the pick-me-up I needed, to remind me that soon I will be achieving one of my transformation goals, of being able to walk onto a BIG Vegas stage with the BIG wings like a Victoria’s Secret model would. Sometimes it is easy to lose focus, when you know how much further you still have to go, to achieve everything that you wish for. I know that there is still soooo much further that I have to go, so that I can be all that I want to be, HOWEVER I need to remember how far I have come already. From the day that I was told by the shop attendant that they don’t make jeans in MY size, to now, I really have come a long way so far. The fact that I will be able to step on stage in this costume is a HUGE achievement, as it was something I only ever dreamed when I walked around with a size 20 backside, covered in cellulite, with my saddlebags being held in by two pairs of Spanx compression stockings…:
I’M JUST A LITTLE COUNTRY GIRL IN A BIG CITY!
Today I am feeling a little bit intimidated to head down to the gym to train. Usually training is my favourite part of my day, but with all of the most amazing bodies from around the world occupying the gym, it brought back all of those old feelings of fear I used to have about walking into a gym. They are all really nice though, and are all wishing me goodluck in their different accents, so there’s absolutely no reason why I should be entertaining these feelings. It was never about the competitors for me, this trip has a much deeper meaning to me, it’s about achieving a milestone goal in my transformation, so it is time to push these feelings aside, get back to doing what I love and get my ass down there to TRAIN!
A FISH OUT OF WATER…
Well today I went to the competitors meeting, and I really did look like a fish out of water… EVERYBODY rocked up to the meeting dressed like you would for the red carpet! They already had perfect tans, hair and full make-up on in the most glamorous looking shiny Vegas Evening Gowns! And here I was, looking like a real Aussie Country girl, with no idea, so OUT OF PLACE! In Australia we rock up to the Pre-competition meetings in our daggy and baggy clothes as this is usually the night we are getting our tans sorted! I was AMAZED by a huge conference room full of beautiful people, it really blew my mind! So I tried to hide and look as inconspicuous as I possibly could at the back of the room, and kicked myself for missing the opportunity to meet and network with all of these people tonight 🙁
SHOW NIGHT CRUSH
This was the BIG Night! The night I have been dreaming of, the night I have been striving for… When I had a size 20 backside, legs covered in cellulite, and used to wear two pairs of Spanx to hold in my saddlebags, I dreamed that one day I could step onto a BIG Vegas Stage, wearing BIG showgirl wings like a Victoria’s Secret Angel! This is the night that I planned to showcase my body off in a Showgirl Costume in front of the WORLD at the WBFF World Championships! I would be amongst the ‘best of the best’ bodies in the world, and I was sooooo excited that it was finally going to happen! Only, the night did not go as I dreamed or planned… 🙁 See my disappointment at the end of the night when I DON’T get the opportunity to walk on stage in the amazing costume! There was an issue from an organisational point of view with being able to manage all of the girls in my category (being the largest category of the night). I was waiting patiently backstage for my turn, but it never came…. they missed calling my number/name out for my chance to walk on stage. The finalists were judged and it was all over, so I went to talk to one of the officials and they blamed me for not being ready on time…only I know that I was the first ready and waiting in the line, with those arriving later than me still getting called out. I was left feeling crushed. My dream is turning out so much harder to achieve than I ever imagined…
SHOW NIGHT TAKE TWO!
So last night didn’t go as planned and I was left feeling crushed and ‘cut.’ However, today is a new day and CEO of the WBFF World’s, Paul Dillett wished to personally apologise to me, as he was unable to be present for the show due to his heart/health, but he organised for me to have my 15 seconds on stage at the Finals night with the WBFF Pro’s tonight! So I am getting up to go through all of the motions again (hair, make-up, tan, etc) so that I can finally have my time on the Las Vegas stage as I had dreamed 🙂 Unfortunately mum was not allowed to tape the show, but I was VERY HAPPY that I FINALLY achieved this milestone goal. Thank goodness this time I am crying happy tears! It’s a very fulfilling to know that I have achieved this goal, and now I can move onto the next one!
TIME TO LET MY HAIR DOWN A LITTLE IN THE BIG NASTY!
Today is our last day to enjoy Vegas, and after achieving my goal, it is now time to let my hair down a little bit and have a day of celebration. No training or gym today! I think I got just a little high and crazy on sugar and shit food! It was a fun day to enjoy with mum but by the end of the day we were back on the phone to room service trying to work out some clean food to be delivered 🙂
ROAD TRIP TO DISNEYLAND CONT.
POSING WITH THE MOUNTAIN LIONS!
Today mum and I ventured out to the Nevada Desert for a photoshoot with Internationally acclaimed fitness and glamour photographer GW Burns. I can’t even describe how HOT it was (over 40 degrees Celsius) and it was so WINDY and stormy! But it certainly made for some moody shots! We had so much fun with GW who is so wonderful to work with, so laid back and has a great sense of humour! What an experience…
ROAD TRIP TO DISNEYLAND- NO IT’S NOT THELMA AND LOUISE, IT’S MUM & STACEY LOUISE!
Today mum and I are making our way to Disneyland…via a Hire Car, on the wrong (right) side of the road! We are feeling like Thelma and Louise, and a bit rebellious when we drive through a California Inspection, and decide to wander off the Freeway following the signs to a Ghost Town…
MAKING DREAMS COME TRUE- NOW IT’S MUM’S TURN!
It was my dream to grace the Las Vegas stage in the big Victoria’s Secret costume…and it has always been my mum’s dream to go to Disneyland. If you haven’t already seen it, please check out below my video diary from 11.08.13 when I surprised my mum with a ticket to the USA and DISNEYLAND! Today is our first day at Disneyland, and whilst we have lunch with the Disney Princesses’ mum says it has EXCEEDED her expectations! Now if she would just stop giving me such a hard time to get on that damn roller-coaster because honestly nothing scares me more in the world!
LIVING MY NIGHTMARES!
Ok so I HATE HEIGHTS! I am so, so, so, sooooooooooooo scared of heights! This caused many arguments between mum and I, since she desperately wanted me to go on the rollercoasters with her…but I just want to go on all the kiddy rides! Mum calls me lame. Then she manages to trick me into going on the Hollywood Tower of Terror. Today I think I nearly died. It took me at least 40 minutes to recover enough to be able to get up! But then I felt very brave, and even bought a pin to say “I went on the Hollywood Tower of Terror” to wear proudly!
NEVER STOP BELIEVING
You are NEVER too old to dream, NEVER stop dreaming! Never give up on your dreams! YOU CAN LIVE YOUR DREAMS!
EVEN BIGGER DREAMS TO CHASE NOW!
Reflecting over the year that I have had and my Farm to Fairytale experience, I have learned so much! I am now wiser, stronger and better for it! NOW I have BIGGER dreams to chase…
P.S The star of this video, my Thoroughbred horse Beauroc, has his own Instagram account, follow him here!
In memory of a SUPERMODEL:
Thankyou for the experience, thank you for giving me the courage to chase my dreams. Thank you for all of the lessons along the journey. Thank you for being the most amazing father I could ever have. You are my true inspiration in life, you are a SUPERMODEL, the best role model I could have ever had. You never gave up and whenever things get tough for me I think of how hard you fought for your health and how hard you worked to try and keep fit and keep illness away. I love you so much, I think of you everyday, I thank you everyday for my health and fitness and everything you have taught me in life. I will never stop chasing my dreams for you, and I promise to do my best to pass on your message of health and fitness to the world until the day I join you again.
Love forever, your dream chaser, in health and happiness,